A few changes to Starfire Angels

I’m leaning towards using my initials for what’s coming in the Revelations series. If you’re not familiar, I use M. A. Nilles for stories that are more graphic and/or contain more mature themes. Soriel was kind of a transition, while Deception was still all right for a younger audience. I feel that Phantoms and now Shards are leaning towards that more mature audience. I can’t sugar-coat the realities of the Shirukan when I’m writing about them directly, not the way I could in Soriel. I’ll be using Phantoms as the transition to M. A. Nilles and am changing the cover of Shards to reflect that change also.

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in-freakin-credible!

This is why I tolerate my horse’s occasional exuberant spats, like the one that had me praying for a miracle Monday:

He is super talented. Sure, he doesn’t have the fancy front-end movement of the elite warmbloods, but he is a warmblood with an athletic ability that has always amazed me. As long as he can activate the engine (pushing from his hindquarters and using more hock action), that’s all that matters. The power comes from behind, not from the front.

It takes a while to warm-up sometimes. He had two days off since a very challenging workout on Wednesday where I really pushed him with lots of fantastic rollbacks on the lungeline (we do downunder horsemanship regularly) and then pushed him under saddle after a brief break to tack him up. Today, he was stiff again on his left side, which has always been a problem and is normal after two or more days off. After lungeing, we did a lot of suppling exercises, first at the walk, starting with medium walk to collected walk and repeated several times, and then a free walk where he stretched nicely. Then we moved onto shoulder-ins, travers/renvers, leg-yields (which only came out well after we had to refresh with some turns on the forehand and some whip reinforcement), and some walk half-pass, which actually went very well. He’s gotten very responsive at just a shift of my seat now. At the trot, we had a few stiffness issues come up along the left side again and had to work hard to supple it. I realized I wasn’t asking correctly for travers and half-pass, and even then it took a tap on his left shoulder to remind him that my leg was asking him to lift up there while bending around that leg. Then things fell into place.

Canter work was pretty good, but finishing up was what got me so excited. I was wrapping up with some trot-walk transitions when I wanted to get out of the way of a lesson student coming around on the outside and asked Beau to move off. He took just a step or two of walk and went into the most beautiful canter to the left, his more difficult side (if you haven’t noticed the pattern already). He had become so loose and soft by then, along with the collection I had been asking, that he just sat deep. I wanted to keep it and asked for a couple 10 m circles to make it easy for a nice canter-walk. Again, the lesson student was coming around so I asked him to turn away from the wall but a little tighter than I wanted. He performed an amazing 1/4 canter pirouette! I asked for a couple strides straight into the arena and he almost gave me a canter-halt, rather than the just the canter-walk I wanted. THAT is why I work through any training difficulties. My horse is AMAZING! I’ve done all his training and we’re both learning as we move up the levels, and he’s only seven, so he has so much potential yet.

These little glimpses into what we can do really help me to get a feeling for what I need to do to make it attainable as a regular training movement. And thanks to my instructor, we can do a medium trot, because we’ve worked on that instead of simply lengthening.

I have to credit my regular instructor for helping us through so many difficulties. It seems like Beau is always having an off day when we have a lesson. And I have to credit an out-of-state instructor who comes up from Kansas every 2-3 months for clinics. As someone who regularly trains horses and riders up to Grand Prix level, she has helped us put the polish on what my regular instructor has done. It is a fantastic combination! And I credit my guardian angels who keep me safe when Beau gets exuberant and I’ve already done all I can to be safe.

I can avoid the troubles if I listen to the warning signs that he has some exuberance to let out. That’s what I didn’t do on Monday. I thought I could handle it, but he proved that he won’t contain himself when he needs to stretch his legs, and he is a big boy who needs to stretch his legs at least once in a while. His run may be good sized, but it’s not enough for him to get any speed.

Once the outdoor arena is dry, I’ll be turning him out regularly when it’s empty for a good run before we ride ;)

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Giveaway Results

Thank you to everyone who signed up for the chance to win one of my signed paperbacks of Soriel through Elle Casey’s Indie Book Giveaway.

Congratulations to the winners:

Crystal

Debby

Sheryl

Shona

Yia

I’ve sent emails to the winners. If you can all get back to me ASAP, I’ll get those books into the mail with some extra swag (who wants to read a paperback without a bookmark or two ;) ).

If you signed up and your name wasn’t on the above list, check back on this blog or “like” my Facebook pages at facebook.com/starfireangels or facebook.com/melanienilles. I do random giveaways and/or contests with prizes. I appreciate your interest.

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Secret Project Reveal WITH COVER!

shards880Tada! I mentioned it as a secret project a few times on Facebook, but was waiting for the right time to reveal it here for when I had something substantial. All I can say is that this will be a novella taking place between parts 1 and 2 of Phantoms this fall.

Here’s the plan: I hope to have Part 1 of Phantoms out by the end of August, then this story–Shards–around late September/early October with Part 2 of Phantoms by the end of October with the full ebook of Phantoms (parts 1 and two together) around the same time. The paperback of Phantoms will be out soon after the ebook.

Because of its short length, Shards will only be available as an ebook, but you don’t want to miss it! Trust me on this. Fans have been asking for more about this character and I’m giving it plus MUCH more! Forbidden love and a twist you won’t see coming will be told from this beloved character’s point of view. Yes, it will be first person narrative.

I’m still writing it, so I don’t have a summary yet. The price will likely be $1.99 as an ebook.

I had to write this one before finishing Phantoms and it’s perfect that it will fall between the releases of both parts of that, since that’s when it takes place while also setting up what I have in mind for Revelations book 3 to come.

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Revisiting an old issue with my horse…or seeing my life flash before my eyes!

And my instructor saw for herself tonight the frightening reason I rode Beau in a pelham up until last summer (at her insistence that I switch to a legal bit), which I am going back to using in the outdoor arena (with her agreement that I need something with more control). I was praying the whole time for him to just stop, but I was damned if I was bailing. I stayed on and it was the thought of my children that kept me in the saddle, even while riding that runaway freight train with one stirrup gone and the other threatening to go.

Bailing off at that speed was NOT an option, so if anyone is going to suggest it, I say–I dare you to try it! F**k that idea! I was safer in the saddle. Thank goodness my instructor and I had taken down the jumps near the fence and that the fence was high. I swear Beau was considering jumping to freedom in a couple of places but then turned, and he only felt like he might buck in one place but I kept his head up, which meant he braced even harder against me.

And at that speed, pulling his head around is NOT an option, unless you want to go crashing into the dirt. Besides, the harder you try to stop him, the harder he fights and faster he goes. You can only ride it out and wait for him to lose steam. After the first couple rounds of the arena, I tried occasional flexing of his jaw to try to soften him, but he didn’t budge until he was ready…several more terrifyingly uncontrolled rounds later.

After he finished, I was breathing so hard I had that blood taste in the back of my throat and was coughing for an hour after. I’m finally recovered two hours later.

Was I scared? HELL YES!! PRAYING-FOR-A-MIRACLE-THE-WHOLE-FREAKIN-TIME SCARED!! Will it stop me? YEAH RIGHT! He’s just going to learn that trying that again is going to mean harder work and punishment and doing what he’s supposed to do will be much easier.

I haven’t had a runaway in two years, but I’ll be damned if I’m going to let him intimidate me. We got through it once and we will do it again. We have some training techniques to resolve this.

And I think I know what started it when he had been going so well outside. Asking for something that he wasn’t ready to give had scared him into running through my aids a little was what gave him the idea that he could do it again. We’re going back to some exercises to resolve this on the right track, but it looks like any shows in the next two months are out, because it will take that long to train this out of him again.

ps–THIS is why I will not take my horse out on trail rides.

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Massive Indie Book Giveaway!

Thanks to fellow indie author, Elle Casey, for making this possible. I’ve thrown in 5 signed PAPERBACKS of Soriel. But hurry! The giveaway closes on the 15th! To enter, follow this link: http://ellecasey.com/promotions/elle-caseys-springtime-indie-book-giveaway/













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Fargo CoreCon wrap-up

Ah! The weekend is done. It was an interesting weekend and I’m still mentally slapping myself for the times when my brain quit functioning but my mouth still worked, spitting out idiocy. I’m good for that when I’m nervous. The caffeine probably didn’t help matters, except to keep me going after not sleeping well because of the partying going on at night while I was trying to sleep.

But that’s a con for you. It was fun.

CoreCon13table

While my husband hosted a Battletech grinder in the gaming room (Friday and Saturday), I was busy chatting with people about my books from my vendor table. I sat between two others, including two young men from the Epic Loop store in the Fargo/Moorhead area on one side. They were very helpful in watching my table when I had to make a quick run for food or the bathroom. I had only me while most everyone else had at least a partner. But my daughters begged for the Portal Companion Cube and the Minecraft pick-axe they had on their tables, so between that and bringing back lunch for them one day when I ran to Subway, I think I made up for it on my end ;)

On my other side was an indie horror film producer who made retro horror (think 1950′s style). Cool stuff!

It was my first real exposure to the public as a local author with actual books, and, other than being across the river on the MN side, I was pretty much in the college city where I graduated. I wasn’t far from NDSU in Fargo. I’d consider that local, even if I had to drive from central ND to get there. And I sold books! Not as many as I’d hoped, but enough to make it worthwhile.

As you can see in the picture, one 2′ x 6′ table hardly had room for the books I put out, which didn’t even include Metamorphosis. I was one book stand short too, so it stayed hidden. The table cloths were provided, so I didn’t have to use the one I bought. I sold a little of everything that was on the table and gave away a few things.

On Saturday, I gave a presentation on self-publishing, but in one hour, I knew I would only have time to present the basics. I could have gone two hours, but I didn’t want to be away from my table that long and had only asked for the one time slot. Unfortunately, the con organizers scheduled Patricia Tallman at the same time in the other room. *I* wanted to sit in on that one! As for my “panel”, which really was a presentation, I still had about seven people who were very interested and asked lots of questions so that I had to rush through the last half of the information I had in my presentation.

PTCoreCon13On a good note, I did get to pester the gracious lady guest of honor a little. They placed her table at the entrance of the vendor room just a little ways down from me. I had the chance to get our Babylon 5 season 5 boxed set autographed and had a couple of pics taken, one with my youngest child and another with my husband. I’m not very photogenic and Pat is tall, just as her name suggests, although in the high heels she wore, she made me look like a dwarf…not hard to do since I’m only 5’2″. My husband is about 5’9″.

Oh, yes. On Saturday, someone accidentally triggered the fire alarm, about ten minutes before my presentation. Luckily, it was a false alarm and they let us back into the hotel in less than ten minutes, so I barely had time to set up but the staff also bumped everything by ten minutes, so that helped.

At the end of the weekend, I had one more chance to pester Pat. Knowing she’s an avid reader, I offered her any of my books. She said she reads everything, including young adult. I offered her a full set of the Starfire Angels series to take with her for her Penny Lane charity, but afterwards, I realized I didn’t sign any of them. Doh! I hope she enjoys reading them, because she said she does read them herself too. So, I’m kicking myself and scared but excited to hear what she thinks of it. She said she’d let me know.

All in all, an exciting weekend, but the ride home sucked with two kids overly tired after staying up late and playing hard with their cousins all weekend. They crashed quickly after going to bed last night. Thank goodness!

Monday is here and I’m rested and ready to go ride my horse.

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raising doubts

I’m having doubts again. I haven’t fully recovered from the last year and thinking I should take my writing in a different direction that I don’t feel is right. I love Soriel and Tiger Born for the balance of qualities in them and feel that they are two of my strongest stories, but lately I’ve still been feeling like I’m not doing something right, that I don’t know who I am anymore as a writer.

Then I had a blog reviewer make comments about the writing in Soriel. (I asked her to review it and I appreciate her making the time.) This being one of the stories that I feel is my strongest, the comments hit me hard. It’s like a one-two punch–knock-out! Oh, she liked the story, but had issues with the writing, and she is entitled to her opinion. Besides, she’s probably right and I may have gotten a little sloppy. The review posts on Monday, btw. But certain criticisms can still hurt, even after years of enduring this roller coaster ride. Reader reviewers have said the opposite in their reviews, so I don’t know what to think any more.

I took a walk, meditated on it, and have been trying to pick up the pieces from the floor by reminding myself that the majority of my readers like the book. Why can’t that be enough?

Because I want to attract new readers. Improvement is the only way to get there. I thought I had this writing thing down, but my ego is fragile. I know I can’t be perfect. It’s unreal to expect that. It’s unreal to expect a blockbuster. The majority of writers never reach that status. But I place higher aspirations and expectations on myself, in writing and in riding (just ask my horse!).

It’s just so frustrating for me. I’ve been seriously writing for nearly 21 years now, and the first sixteen were practice. I thought since I’ve been offered a few contracts by a couple of small publishers a few years ago already, that I had reached some level of competency. I want to write well to tell a fun story. I feel like I keep trying but falling short and I realize that I’m a late bloomer compared to some writers. I have enough ideas to keep me going for many years, but my stamina to continue trudging up this hill wanes. Some days I don’t know where the strength comes from and I’m afraid of the day it could disappear.

I just want to write what I like and enjoy myself again, and I think I need to begin by ignoring all reviews completely and focusing on making myself happy. I have to take my own advice, but it’s harder than I thought!

Now you know some of the pain I put myself through.

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Deception excerpt

Fighting instincts kicked into full and, in spite of the soreness in her leg, she sent him stumbling. It cost her with a shot of pain in her leg that sent her sitting against the console, while he jumped to his feet.

“Give up,” Coulter taunted. “You can’t win.”

“Yes, I can.” The woman at the doorway stayed her ground, but she held her weapon ready and hot, if the glowing end was any warning. She could have taken Anita out any time, but she waited. Perhaps she found the whole argument amusing.

Coulter sprang at her and caught her short hair. The pinch at the back of her neck was nothing, but something zinged through Anita so that her limbs fell limp and she collapsed. He held her on the way down, stopping her from slamming onto the floor, and leaned over her. Filthy, disgusting…

“Eyes closed.” His barely audible voice in her ear broke her shock from whatever he had done.

What had he done? She couldn’t move!

He rose from her, giving her a sharp look and glancing aside beyond one of the center consoles behind him. Eyes closed, he mouthed.

Why? Not that she could defend herself if he attacked—he had paralyzed her—but his insistence made no sense. Why should she obey him?

Still kneeling over her, he closed his eyes for a couple of seconds as if to make his point. “She’s still alive, Lieutenant, but I had to neutralize her.”

Neutralize? As in their stun weapons? But she wasn’t uncon—

You son of a bitch. Understanding sprang through her head, and she closed her eyes.

A small squeeze on her shoulder confirmed what she suspected.

“Watch her,” he said. “I need to speak with Prime Commander Loran.”

“Yes, sir.”

—Deception (Starfire Angels: Revelations 1.5), now available!

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I dare ya!

And tell me what happened! (I’ll be inside with some little tikes all day)

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